I have hearing loss. It started about ten years ago and has quickly progressed. I now wear high-tech hearing aids that help filter things in such a way that I can hear SOME conversation, but not all. I have two conditions called sensiro-neural hearing loss and also conductive hearing loss. In other words, my ears are in rough shape and my hearing sucks.
As a powwow, my goal is to offer healing. It's sometimes tricky to think of healing others when there are things about myself that I can't heal, but that's just life I suppose. I no longer get angry at God because my hearing is so poor. I've learned to adjust to it and adapt.
When people contact me, I do have doubts about my ability to heal, I won't lie. I think that because I myself have a disability, I will be unable to help others. But then I remember that Christ called me to this path, and so therefore I should just do what I do and not worry about myself. My own issues are not a part of the equation. What matters is that there are people in need and God has given me the ability to help them in some way.
Hearing loss is hard. The world sounds different and muffled and it makes you feel isolated and stressed and cut off from others. It's like having a hat and hood and sound-dampering earphones on ALL THE TIME. It's like living in a muffled version of the world where you don't quite know what others are saying. It's exhausting because you are constantly straining to hear others. I'm very fortunate that I could afford state-of-the-art hearing aids, but even they have their limits.
The most important thing I want you to learn from this has nothing to do with me. But you should know that even if you go to someone who has the ability to heal, they themselves may have their own issues that they are dealing with. Don't deify your local powwow. He or she may very well be like me and struggling with their own issues. They (like me) will certainly give their all to help you, but they also have their own stuff to deal with.